Monday, March 30, 2015
My Ultimate Temptation
I am sitting at MOPS (mothers of preschoolers) and The huge breakfast potluck is my kryptonite. I seriously have no self control and can't resist piling my plate to overflowing every time. I am staring at everyone's plates right now and I'm not going to lie. I am struggling. To make matter way worse, today is our Pinterest party and of course their is a dinner category and a SWEETS category. Is it bad that I'm not eating breakfast so that I can partake? This will be my breakfast and lunch and I am going to try pick one or two things instead of one of every I item. I will post later to confess if I was able to abstain or not
Yummy Food...can I really give up the foods I love?
I love food...I mean I REALLY love food! I couldn't always say that. Back in high school and college when I was so skinny people would ask me if I was anorexic (I wasn't...I ate plenty but I just didn't *love* food the way I do now) I would eat and eat to try to gain weight to get rid of my skinny knobby knees and scrawny arms. Boy, what was I thinking! Little did I know 15 years later, (wow, how am I that old?!?) I would be trying to lose all that weight I gained. Over the last 5-7 years I have tried at various times to lose a few pounds here and a few pound there. After a few weeks watching my calories on My Fitness Pal I would drop 4 or 5 pounds, still eating my sweets that I love so much as long as they fit in my calorie goal for the day. In the last 6 months I have tried to count my calories and have been really diligent with it and I noticed I'm having a hard time just dropping a few pounds like I used to be able to do. After two weeks of being very diligent and trying to cut out the junk and only losing a pound I would go right back to stuffing my face of everything I had deprived myself of for a few weeks and put on even more pounds. So goes my cycle...
I finally looked at myself in the mirror the other day after having to squeeze myself into my size 12 shorts that used to be loose on me and decided to weigh myself. WOW! I couldn't believe it...164 lbs! That is the highest I have ever been (except when I was pregnant) and I could have cried. I've decided to give this diet thing another go. After a few years of losing a few pounds and then gaining them plus more back I'm really not sure if I can be successful. I love food too much...
Chocolate, cookies, ice cream, cake, candy, white cheese dip and tortilla chips from my favorite Mexican restaurant, PIZZA, and is there anything better than a giant hot roll with butter dripping off of it??
How can I be successful when these yummy temptations stare me in the face every day? I really want to be thin and healthy and then I see something yummy and that vision flies right out the window. I have NO self-control when it comes to eating. This is where this blog comes in. This is going to be my journal to come and vent to when I really want something that I shouldn't eat. To document my successful days and my days where I blow it big time. Hopefully just seeing my food temptations in writing, and stopping to take the time to write about it before I eat it will help curb the impulse. I really don't know if I'm going to be successful but I am committing to 3 months (hopefully I can stretch it to a year after the 3 months but...baby steps) of writing on this blog/journal every single day. I will confess the good and bad so I can look back and see the situations I am in that make me fail. My goal is to lose 20 lbs. I know that probably won't happen in three months but my hopes is to get into good eating habits and continue on. I am NOT saying I will never eat anything sweet or never eat Pizza but I am going to try to eat it sparingly and in moderation. Let's face it...I just don't think I can live without a cupcake every once in a while.
I am setting 5 goals for myself for a better, healthier me. I read to not overwhelm yourself and set yourself up for failure to start with one goal at a time so that is what I will do. I will start adding in goals as I become comfortable with one and make a good habit of it.
My Goals:
Read my Bible Daily (I have started on the Read the Bible in a Year plan and have been doing it for 2 months)
Calorie Count (my daily goal is 1,330 calories for right now, and I'm trying to not eat as my junk even if it fits in my calories)
Exercising (I plan to add exercise to my diet in about a week or so)
Spend More Time with My Kids
Keep My House Clean
I have actually been doing my calorie counting for a week now and so far I have lost 2 pounds. That may sound really good but I am still above my previous high so it's a little discouraging. With the help of my journal confessions I am going to keep at it and not give up. I was faced with free Chick-fil-a chocolate chip cookies on Saturday and somehow I managed to make it past that temptation so I did feel a thrill of victory over that:-)
So, that's the story and my plan. I'm not trying to get a bunch of viewers or followers with this blog. I'm simply trying to find a way to hold my self accountable to my goals. If you want to read along feel free.
I finally looked at myself in the mirror the other day after having to squeeze myself into my size 12 shorts that used to be loose on me and decided to weigh myself. WOW! I couldn't believe it...164 lbs! That is the highest I have ever been (except when I was pregnant) and I could have cried. I've decided to give this diet thing another go. After a few years of losing a few pounds and then gaining them plus more back I'm really not sure if I can be successful. I love food too much...
Chocolate, cookies, ice cream, cake, candy, white cheese dip and tortilla chips from my favorite Mexican restaurant, PIZZA, and is there anything better than a giant hot roll with butter dripping off of it??
How can I be successful when these yummy temptations stare me in the face every day? I really want to be thin and healthy and then I see something yummy and that vision flies right out the window. I have NO self-control when it comes to eating. This is where this blog comes in. This is going to be my journal to come and vent to when I really want something that I shouldn't eat. To document my successful days and my days where I blow it big time. Hopefully just seeing my food temptations in writing, and stopping to take the time to write about it before I eat it will help curb the impulse. I really don't know if I'm going to be successful but I am committing to 3 months (hopefully I can stretch it to a year after the 3 months but...baby steps) of writing on this blog/journal every single day. I will confess the good and bad so I can look back and see the situations I am in that make me fail. My goal is to lose 20 lbs. I know that probably won't happen in three months but my hopes is to get into good eating habits and continue on. I am NOT saying I will never eat anything sweet or never eat Pizza but I am going to try to eat it sparingly and in moderation. Let's face it...I just don't think I can live without a cupcake every once in a while.
I am setting 5 goals for myself for a better, healthier me. I read to not overwhelm yourself and set yourself up for failure to start with one goal at a time so that is what I will do. I will start adding in goals as I become comfortable with one and make a good habit of it.
My Goals:
Read my Bible Daily (I have started on the Read the Bible in a Year plan and have been doing it for 2 months)
Calorie Count (my daily goal is 1,330 calories for right now, and I'm trying to not eat as my junk even if it fits in my calories)
Exercising (I plan to add exercise to my diet in about a week or so)
Spend More Time with My Kids
Keep My House Clean
I have actually been doing my calorie counting for a week now and so far I have lost 2 pounds. That may sound really good but I am still above my previous high so it's a little discouraging. With the help of my journal confessions I am going to keep at it and not give up. I was faced with free Chick-fil-a chocolate chip cookies on Saturday and somehow I managed to make it past that temptation so I did feel a thrill of victory over that:-)
So, that's the story and my plan. I'm not trying to get a bunch of viewers or followers with this blog. I'm simply trying to find a way to hold my self accountable to my goals. If you want to read along feel free.
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